The Feeling...

Hi guys! Just woke up. I have a terrible headache lately, but I'm better now... I already took my medicine.
I wasted another day of my life. This day is like a trash, got nothing to do. Plus this stupid head of mine hurts so badly. I slept the whole day since we don't have driving lessons. I went to a friend's house to fetch my guitar amplifier that's been stuck there for weeks. Oh God! I miss playing my guitar, since i got obsessed with my drums and the internet. It's really different now since I quit the band, things are so different. I feel my life so lonely, me and my friends don't used to hang out anymore. College is really different, got people expecting the best of you, depending on you. I guess this was just the start of being in the real life, you gotta be independent. I miss highschool! I miss being a little kid, when you can still turn and cry to your mum anytime you're hurt. Don't need anything, or wanting some things, just a piece of candy and a mum's attention and cuddle can already make you a happy. The only reason why I'm still holding on is the hope in me, me being with Tez...it already makes me happy. Sometimes I feel like I wanna burst out in rage, in tears, I want to scream and smash things up. I want to break away. Life is really stressing when there's a lot of pressure, from all the people around. I'm so lucky I have Tez, who makes me smile, keeps bugging me when I'm in my silent zone. *sigh __ what would I do in my life without her..?